《少年维特的烦恼·第二部·1771 年 10 月至 1772 年 12 月》第19节
JULY 29. No, no! it is yet well all is well! I her husband! O God, who gave me being, if thou hadst destined this happiness for me, my whole life would have been one continual thanksgiving! But I will not murmur—forgive these tears, forgive these fruitless wishes. She—my wife! Oh, the very thought of folding that dearest of Heaven's creatures in my arms! Dear Wilhelm, my whole frame feels convulsed when I see Albert put his arms around her slender waist! And shall I avow it? Why should I not, Wilhelm? She would have been happier with me than with him. Albert is not the man to satisfy the wishes of such a heart. He wants a certain sensibility; he wants—in short, their hearts do not beat in unison. How often, my dear friend, I'm reading a passage from some interesting book, when my heart and Charlotte's seemed to meet, and in a hundred other instances when our sentiments were unfolded by the story of some fictitious character, have I felt that we were made for each other! But, dear Wilhelm, he loves her with his whole soul; and what does not such a love deserve? I have been interrupted by an insufferable visit. I have dried my tears, and composed my thoughts. Adieu, my best friend!
注释摘要
开始于一连串急促的否定，这封信是维特在想象中完成的一场不可能的结合。“我，她的丈夫！”——这个念头还没有成形就被他自己掐断了。他只是短暂地滑入那个假设：如果上帝曾把这幸福判给他，他的人生就会是一篇连绵不绝的感恩。但眼下他手中什么也没有，只有这个假设残留下来的尖锐疼痛。所谓“我绝不抱怨”是一句无力兑现的许诺，因为下面一整段都是在抱怨，或者说，是在用忏悔的语调…