《股票作手回忆录·第十四章·游戏永不变·人性永不变》第4节
As I studied the problem I saw that it wasn’t a case that called for reading the tape but for reading my own self. I quite cold-bloodedly reached the conclusion that I would never be able to accomplish anything useful so long as I was worried, and it was equally plain that I should be worried so long as I owed money. I mean, as long as any creditor had the power to vex me or to interfere with my coming back by insisting upon being paid before I could get a decent stake together. This was all so obviously true that I said to myself, “I must go through bankruptcy.” What else could relieve my mind? It sounds both easy and sensible, doesn’t it? But it was more than unpleasant, I can tell you. I hated to do it. I hated to put myself in a position to be misunderstood or misjudged. I myself never cared much for money. I never thought enough of it to consider it worthwhile lying for. But I knew that everybody didn’t feel that way. Of course I also knew that if I got on my feet again I’d pay everybody off, for the obligation remained. But unless I was able to trade in the old way I’d never be able to pay back that million.
注释摘要
这段自省发生在利弗莫尔人生中一个极度灰暗的时期。故事里的时间大约是1911年到1914年，在这漫长的四年里，市场死气沉沉，几乎没有像样的行情。他离开前一家公司后，不仅没能东山再起，反而在试图强迫市场给他机会的过程中，债务像雪球一样滚到了超过一百万美元。这是一个曾经拥有游艇的人，如今却深陷泥潭。 细读这段文字，你会发现他做了一个至关重要的战略转向：把目光从外…