《股票作手回忆录·第十四章·游戏永不变·人性永不变》第3节
I convinced myself that whatever was wrong was wrong with me and not with the market. Now what could be the trouble with me? I asked myself that question in the same spirit in which I always study the various phases of my trading problems. I thought about it calmly and came to the conclusion that my main trouble came from worrying over the money I owed. I was never free from the mental discomfort of it. I must explain to you that it was not mere consciousness of my indebtedness. Any business man contracts debts in the course of his regular business. Most of my debts were really nothing but business debts, due to what were unfavourable business conditions for me, and no worse than a merchant suffers from, for instance, when there is an unusually prolonged spell of unseasonable weather. Of course as time went on and I could not pay I began to feel less philosophical about my debts. I’ll explain: I owed over a million dollars--all of it stock-market losses, remember. Most of my creditors were very nice and didn’t bother me; but there were two who did bedevil me. They used to follow me around. Every time I made a winning each of them was Johnny-on-the-spot, wanting to know all about it and insisting on getting theirs right off. One of them, to whom I owed eight hundred dollars, threatened to sue me, seize my furniture, and so forth. I can’t conceive why he thought I was concealing assets, unless it was that I didn’t quite look like a stage hobo about to die of destitution.
注释摘要
在1910年代中期的华尔街，破产是一种既常见又极具道德重量的商业现象。在今天看来，个人破产或许更多是一种法律上的财务重组工具，但在当时的美国社会，它紧密地与个人荣誉、社会身份和商业信誉捆绑在一起。利文斯顿这里描写的，是一个交易者从云端跌落后，在长达四年的市场“无钱期”中所经历的精神地狱。这四年里，市场犹如一潭死水，没有趋势，没有波动，对于依靠价格变动为生的…