《忏悔录·卷三·漂泊、音乐与谋生》第27节
I was never well informed of the motives of this journey. I am certain she would have told me had I asked her, but never was man less curious to learn the secrets of his friend. My heart is ever so entirely filled with the present, or with past pleasures, which become a principal part of my enjoyment, that there is not a chink or corner for curiosity to enter. All that I conceive from what I heard of it, is, that in the revolution caused at Turin by the abdication of the King of Sardinia, she feared being forgotten, and was willing by favor of the intrigues of M. d' Aubonne to seek the same advantage in the court of France, where she has often told me she should have preferred it, as the multiplicity of business there prevents your conduct from being so closely inspected. If this was her business, it is astonishing that on her return she was not ill received; be that as it will, she continued to enjoy her allowance without any interruption. Many people imagined she was charged with some secret commission, either by the bishop, who then had business at the court of France, where he himself was soon after obliged to go, or some one yet more powerful, who knew how to insure her a gracious reception at her return. If this was the case, it is certain the ambassadress was not ill chosen, since being young and handsome, she had all the necessary qualifications to succeed in a negotiation.
注释摘要
卢梭从里昂匆匆赶回安纳西，满心只想回到华伦夫人身边，却发现她已经动身去了巴黎。这一节便是他对华伦夫人此次巴黎之行的全部交代，而这份交代本身充满了含糊与猜测。 他直言自己“从未被充分告知此行的动机”，随即补上一句自我告白：他敢肯定，假如他开口问，华伦夫人会说，但他这个人对朋友的秘密偏偏没有好奇心。这句话是典型的卢梭式自传逻辑。他并不是在说自己迟钝，而是在强调…